Death by Perfection

Guys! Stay with me. This post goes a little deeper than my first post “The Ideal.” Sounds a little similar, but I really want to get the message across that it is ok if anything is not perfect. Perfection fucks with you and not in a good way.

This blog project has been attempted twice. The first time it happened in 2013 I believe. The only reason why It did not see your gorgeous face, it is because I let my inner perfectionist got in the way. I was trying to get everything together, make sure it was incredible, but the more I tried to work on it, the more “issues” would pop up. I used to be very strict about the things that I would create. Wanting to be perfect got the best of me. With the first attempt, the launching got postponed… a lot. I guess it was my insecurities, or the fear of being judge because of the way that it looked, or even the style that it was written in.

A couple of weeks ago, I heard a podcast, in which they mention how one must let go of this need to have everything according to plan, because in this state of mind things never get done.

I was driving when I heard this, almost dropped my overpriced coffee drink, because something clicked in my mind. This hit me hard, because as a creator, all I want is to make sure my material is a full representation of myself, but as I create I micromanage it to the point where it is never ready, then life pokes your ass and it is forgotten or put in the “maybe tomorrow” list.

There is never a purer representation of you than the version of you that is in the present. (say that fast 3 times.) We are at different places on our journey. So I want to start working on my material, do my best and put it out in the world. I can not look at it like I did back then, if I did, maybe no one will ever see it. And I would be in the exact same place I was 5 years ago.

This will be my second attempt; I pray to the glitter gods that this gets some light to be able to sparkle…even if it is “not ready.”