Happy Thanksgiving Y'all

Happy Thanksgiving y’all!!!!!!!!

I was not going to upload a post this week, but, the consistency in my writing is there. It feels good to just tell you what is going on in my mind. I mean, the Holidays are a weird time for me. They are happy, sad, extreme, irritating, and fun. I feel like there are a lot of emotions in me and at times it is very overwhelming. Is it just me?

I am typing my perfectly manicured fingers off for you today. Actually it is more like therapy for me, because I want to reach out to all of my little loners that feel like me on “special nights” or family reunions. Currently I am in the snowy hills on Santa Fe, and boy! It is so pretty tonight! The snow is falling gently and sticking to the floor. Everything is covered in snow and it looks like a winter wonderland. Outside is very picturesque, but sometimes during those special dinners, things are not as happy. Or at least they weren’t for me in the past.

I remember trying to have conversations with family members that I have not seen in months, but there was no spark. It never went further than “crazy weather we are having, huh?”

Also when I started a topic I felt like talking about, I would get eyes rolled at me and felt like my conversation partner was not listening, I tried to hear other people but the conversation was very toxic and went against things I valued.

I have learned things to help with this feeling. I mean you can always sit down with the favorite cousin and talk about make up, boys, clothes, even fucking Taylor Swift. Hug your family members and let them know that you are present and protect your space and your mind, Because at the end of the day, it's just you. Enjoy the little things, and most importantly, don’t take anything personal. You never know where people are coming from at the time of your interaction.