I am a Hypocrite

I am a hypocrite.

I have told you guys before that I have been in and out of school since I graduated High School. It is always the same cycle of emotions, I mean I always get motivated so I enroll, then when I attend my classes half way through, I get bored and I lose interest. But it is not my attention that I have a problem with. Honestly it is the whole school system. 

I personally believe sooner or later, school will be irrelevant. There are a lot of successful people that do not go the traditional route, and they still manage to live their truth. I have tried to do my own thing and I always hit a dead end road because I am required a degree. UGH!!! It’s a toxic cycle. 

I truly believe that school will be a waste of time in the future, but what am I doing? I am going to school. I feel guilty because I am attending college when I should be believing in me one hundred percent! I should be out there, but I am so scared of not making it and having nothing to fall back on. So the emotion that I feel as I attend another semester is being a fraud. I fight for having a voice yet again I am in a route that everyone takes to get the job based on a piece of paper than with talent. I wonder if my generation feels that way. I mean we are raised traditionally but have started to realize that things are not what they used to, but don’t break from tradition because that is how we were raised. Instead of breaking from every rule of how things are like Generation Z. They have a more entrepreneur spirit than us, because they are more exposed to self employed people. I guess it is all down to confidence and trusting yourself that it can be done. 

I am writing this not to talk down on myself, but to encourage myself more to fallow my gut than an older generation’s perception of how things are.